I realised.. I've been keeping myself so busy during this holiday is just to prevent myself from thinking so much.
What has gotten into me again.
I'm having the words-cannot-express-my-feelings mood again.
And I also wonder why am I looking back again.
I thought I've let go, but I realised, how could I've just let go so easily? If it's so, I would have let go so long ago.

What is my mind doing? deceiving myself? What's the use?

Just now I had a tiring training cause of the hot weather, it has been long since I felt so tired.
I skipped the trip to compass and walked to the bus-stop, and that was when it hit me.
I was thinking back.. to the days when I end my training so late that I would see you at the bus-stop, waiting patiently for your bus.
I remembered how long it was since I last saw you there, it was months ago.
It's really just so hard to forget you, especially when I'm at places I always see you.
Things are really so different now.
We used to talk last time, you used to smile.
Now we don't even talk, you don't even smile.

How things changed overtime really makes .. feel so sad about it.

Gah, I don't feel like typing this shit anymore.
It's just making me feel even more worse.

I guess things will never be the same anymore.
I knew things are bound to change that night, that faithfully night.
How could I ever forget.
When Loklin broke me that news, that news that changed my life.
Not being drama, but seriously, it did change me, change my life.

I would never want that night to occur again.
I would never want to endure another time, the feeling of a broken heart.
and how do you even mend it back?
I don't know.
How do broken hearts mend their own heart? I really don't know.

That was the only once, in my entire life, have I literally felt my heartache.
Felt a part of me, seemed to be pulling away.

And even till now, I'm still wishing, you were still here.

I think I'm being weird, posting here, but I guess. I enjoy the somber of the skin .
Something is wrong with me again, very wrong.
I was reading some articles just now, well..
and looking for some pictures on www.devianart.com .
I came upon some poems, that made me stop and ponder what am I really thinking .
I have not been thinking as much lately, either been too busy with exams, or too busy playing and enjoying myself.
I did not have the time and energy to sit down and think of what's happening to me lately, to seriously consider the situation now.

So, I've always thought, I've gotten over you, after a while, everything I think of you, I feel empty.
I thought that was the feeling I should have, I thought this is the feeling of letting go . But later on, when I saw you somehow, I finally realised.
How wrong my statement was.
It was just because I didn't want to accept the fact that I don't get to see you as often as before, I hide away my feelings for you, cause I'm afraid of this hurt, of this emptiness.
But when I saw you, it all came back to me .. again. I didn't have that numb feeling anymore . Rather, it was the same old feeling .

And tears never fail to roll down everytime I think about the past.
Today, when my maths results were out, I was.. in despair. The first person that came to my mind, was surprisingly you.
I was hoping you were the one I could turn to, and I know you would say something encouraging.
But then I realised, it's 2009 already. I can't be living in my past anymore. Then I realised, you will never be there as I imagined.
And a tear, rolled down my cheek. I can't define whether it's for maths or for the past.

Time changed, things changed.
It's all my fault, I know. My own impulsiveness and dumb actions.
But I know, no matter how much I think about it, how much I pray about it. It's not going to change anything.
What's done is done, what's gone will never be back.

Somethings made me realised... some wounds are never meant to be mended alone.
Like an ankle injury, you'll need someone else's attention to make sure it heals fully.
But even if, someone else was there to help. I still don't know how to .

Thoughts, memories streamed through my head
I was little jaded, my life had become faded.
My head was pounding, illusions of my love -
Shattered in front of me, as clear as a broken glass



A poem,

Where do broken hearts go,
To heal?
Where do they lay in solitude,
And once more become real?
What price, what punishment,
Must they undergo,
Before they are allowed to return,
To a world that has forsaken them,
A world that has spurned?

Where do broken hearts find,
The courage to move on?
Was that strength truly with them,
Inside all along?
Where do they hide the memories,
That they simply cannot share,
With anyone, anywhere?
Where do they learn to love,
Again?

Broken hearts become lonely hearts,
If the healing takes too long
The fear and mistrust of betrayal,
Makes them cold and wan
Lonely means forever broken
You find hurt and anger,
In every word spoken
But what happens if,
That heart is woken?

Sorry for not posting, but relink please. Got damn bored of livejournal. http://elastgoobye.blogspot.com

Today's a great day for me, don't know why I'm so hyper today!
HAPPY :D

Anyway, I was happy throughout the day, made lots of noise today!
During geography was talking to Aja about Sean.
Chemistry was as usual, fun fun and more fun. :D
Chinese was funny as I vandalised Melissa's table with DEXTER AND JIN HONG's NAME. So fun! :D
I finally feel the joy of drawing on others' table, understand peiyu's joy!~ :D

Maths was with Ivy, talking rubbish, then 2 free history periods, Mr Rahim wasn't around ;D
Physics was rather okay today, I understand what Mr Ng was talking about, sat with Ivy and laugh laugh laugh.
I spoil my school button! HAHAHAHA.
Super funny!
Had break before Maths Extra lessons, went down to have lunch and I started the Corine Hello shit.
It's hilarious, I just can't stop doing it! " Hello ~ Excuse me ~ " The Corine way! :D

Maths was as usual, nothing special.
After that went down to ball while waiting for Rachel to go get Coach's cake.
Played with Juniors and Seniors, then Seniors. I had hell lots of fun, with Corine's " Hello ~ Excuse me ~ "
Everyone was laughing and said I was Gu Niang, Gay and all sort of stuff, but I had lots of fun! :D

Then had celebration, took photos, but with Rachel :D
I was stuffed with cream LOL, just had tons of fun! :D

Then took bus to compass with Huiyin and Simone, met Ivy, Pei Yu, Corine and Gideon.
Went to get things for my dog's anniversary tomorrow :X (inside joke)
Bet tomorrow is going to be a blast!
Took bus home together with ivy. :D


Saw you on my way  to yf's. and the feelings I had, was something new.
At least a new feeling I'm having when I see you.
I felt.. nervous, scared, uneasy and well.. i don't know, mixture of uneasy feelings.
I was afraid you might walk right up to me and tell me things I don't want to know, and break me. again.
A fear, a phobia maybe.
Cause I know, my heart can't withstand any of that anymore.
It's still, on it's way of recovery, I'm trying to stick back the pieces.
Hopefully, I can.
Hopefully, I'll be okay, after a few months..

Hello world, I'm finally back on livejournal. Have been too lazy to post some shit here these days.

Happy Birthday Jasmine.

So much activities in march, so many birthdays , I'm broke.
These few days have been eventful and tiring.
Tuesday - Kids Read Training.
Wednesday - Basketball Training.
I sprained my ankle on my way home, too freaking tired.
Thursday - Stayed at home cause I cannot walk, managed to walk after going to the doctor.
Friday - Sports Day.
Got my Bronze for both 400m and 800m, Friday was also 3B BBQ day .

Went Melissa's house, then she came my house to help me take my bee hoon.
Met Joy at her place, took 156 to Compass Height and had lots of fun.
Ate lots of butter-filled food, DAMN OILY. DAMN FATTENING.
But it's nice, no choice. I didn't eat much, cause I was busy with the fire.
Then went up Gid's place to slack, watched the guys play Hotel 626 and I screamed and ran out of the room. LOL.
Then sat outside at the living room with Mr Tien and some girls listening to his ghost story.
Then went downstairs to slack cause Gid's parents coming back, Ronda and Esther came.
The group of us talk and laugh, and scream LOL.
After which, everyone was quite afraid to go home, cause of the ghost stories that were shared.

Today went to watch a Debate with Jo, had fun, saw long last friend there, Eveleen. :D
We skipped the workshop, wanted to go Plaza for lunch, met Hui Min and Alicia on the way, so we went Aston's.
Then we enjoyed lunch, Jo gave the waitress a rose, so was so touched! I felt blessed .
Went to catch "Confession Of A Shopaholic". Nice show, very enjoyable, super funny.
Then we went home.

I won't list down what funny stuff happened today, cause there are too many that made us laugh our ass off.
Like, there was this couple behind me on the escalator, french kissing.
According to Hui Min, it was gross. LOL.
Another example was Hui Min singing " That's not my name.. that's not my name" when we were looking for the toilet.
Damn man, I was so irritated by that song! So dumb!

Anyway, I'm tired. :/
Tomorrow's another day.
Nowadays, each day is just a day to me, I got nothing much to look forward to.
Other than, June holidays. My break, my slack. =/

( wished I was looking into your eyes. )

It's Term 2 already, a hectic term I supposed with all the events going on.
And a crucial examination, THE MYE! THE GRAND MID-YEAR EXAMINATION.

I'm determined to do well this time round, I'M NOT GOING TO COMBINED SCIENCE! NO.
Aim for MYE would be 4A and no Cs ! Hopefully, I can do it.
Really got to buck up on my Amaths, Emaths, English and Physics.

Anyway, the weekend was fun. Was sick on Friday night and Saturday, so I felt tired the whole damn day.
Went Andrew's house in the morning, such a long bus-trip -.- I regretted going.
Did homework together and that idiot started laughing at the things I write, then we started joking more than doing -.-
Then his dad send me home, Drew went for his training. :D
Went out to Ivan's house at Commonwealth for DG social. I went there to sleep LOL.
Hannah, Ivan, Regina and Joy was choosing some tee shirts from webby.
Then we played taboo, fun and exciting, my first time to this game. :)
Then went Plaza Sing to meet up with The Tehs ( Minyu, Zhiyu and Jasmine) And Jiayi (:

Sunday was church day, then homework chionging at home.
Made salad too.

Today's school was not that boring, did enjoy some and learn things.
Had great fun teasing Melissa today together with Ronda! :D
Then.. had fun playing with Peiyu during maths.
Had fun at KFC with Peiyu, Corine, Francis, Shi JIe, Kai Yuan and Terry :D

Came home, did Amaths and went NTUC with grandma, sister, mum and uncle.
Bought a messy black jeans :D Happy with what I've got. Need to get a polo shirt too.
Guess Polo shirt will come from my own pocket D: Jeans was sponsored by grandma :D


( mixture of feelings. )


I shall constantly remind myself,
My refuge and comfort in trouble, is forever, God.
Well, I made a simple prayer, hopefully it could make have so peace and serenity.

I'm bored of homework. But I still got so much to clear.
I'm bored of life, cause I don't know what to do.

yesterday was fun session at mel's house, went there to punch punch punch! SO FUN. :D
Had fun at mac's too.

I saw him.. again.. =/   It hurts more and more. and i dont know why... =/


Today was 400m and 800m, got 3rd for both.
Then went back school to slack,  did some homework.
Then Huimin came, went compass with Hui Yin and Hui Min to eat Mac's, then went home.

You said move on, where do I go?
Would you please tell me what to do? D:

( EMO? )

Morning sent yf to the airport together with the usual gang. Retarded girl going overseas for 3 days nia. Z.
Then we all went yf's house to play, her maid's at home, left round 7am, meeting bell for breakfast.
and I FREAKING SAW HIM AGAINNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN.
And I think this is getting out of hand, when I'm dying to see him, he doesn't appear,
When I'm dying to NOT see him, he appear in my face and walks pass me as though I'm transparent.
I WISH HE WAS TRANSPARENT TO ME.
some love are just so hard to forget, be it infatuation, crush or something.

Then had mac's at compass with Bell. Walked to school with bell, then back to compass to meet up with yanling.
Accompanied Sandy for breakfast, met Ruixi and ate lunch at KFC.
Ruixi and Yanling came over for history project, didn't do much, played alot, laughed alot.
Then accompanied them back to compass, met Sandy and went Kovan with her.
And I'm freaking angry.

Since you like him so much, go ahead, fall apart. BY ALL MEANS.
Since he's more important, you guys are closer, you feel better with him, GO AHEAD.
You have no idea how betrayed I feel, I treat you as my close friend, though we know each other for only 3 months.
I thought I could trust you, I told you everything. 
Though you know how much I HATE HIM, and that I've mention that issue to you before.
You're still the same, you told me if you were me, you would be angry too.
Now what? ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ.
I can't be bothered anymore.

AND MY GRANDFATHER JUST "OI" ME CAUSE I DROPPED HIS DISC,
FINE I DROPPED THEM, IT WAS AN ACCIDENT.
I PICKED UP THEM, AND I LEFT OUT ONE, NOT THAT I DONT WANT TO TAKE.
I REALLY DIDN'T SEE, AND HE WHACK THE TABLE WITH HIS DUMB STICK AND "OI" ME. LIKE I'M HIS DOG.
AND I'M REALLY ANGRY AND PISSED OFF ENOUGH, HIS ACTIONS JUST WORSEN MY SITUATION.

FUCKFUCKFUCK.

I'm really really exhausted today. Today is a full-packed day for me.
Had Chem lesson in the morning, so met Melissa, Jasmine, Rui Xi, Min Yu for breakfast at Compass.
Then walked to school and had chemistry lesson, was blowing bubbles in class.
Had tons of fun, Mr Tien was laughing too.
There was a half an hour break before maths, so Bell, Pei Yu and me went to 7-11 to get some food.
I bought chips back and shared with people.
After 1h45mins of maths, we had a break(?), somehow.
Then we started blowing bubbles again, Mr Tan got annoyed, but well, who cares?
After maths, went lunching with Shi Jie, Francis, Kai Yuan, Terry, Ronda, Ivy and Mr Tien.
Went to the 308 coffee shop for lunch and Ice Kacang was on Mr Tien.
Walked back to school and the few of us except for Ivy, Francis and Shi Jie, went up to the Com Lab to slack?
Went to facebook and etc, super funny. Then 3pm came, time for training.

The few of them came down to watch our 3on3 against Kranji, but left shortly.
Today's training was quite fun but not really tiring, though I'm feeling very tired now.
Played match against Kranji and won, 52 - 32. (:
I got in a 3 point , felt happy.

Anyway, I enjoy playing with Kranji, not for any other reason but their sportsmanship.
Though they are at a losing point, they don't do despicable stuff like what some other schools did, even though it's just a friendly match.
Among my 3 years of basketball experience in NC, I think Kranji is one of the school that I have the best impression on.
Maybe because this isn't the first time we're have a friendly. :D
But honestly, I respect and admire their sportsmanship, truly think that they are nice people.

After training, went down compass to meet Jasmine and went home together.
So now I'm homed, feeling very exhausted and tired.
And I believe I'm going to bed already, like so freaking early.
But I'm reallllly very tired.
Though my days haven't been smooth lately, today is considered a really happy day already.

( Wounds that are not healing. )

Yesterday was spent with Bell, Pei Yu, Ah Tiah and Qiu Xuan. (:
Met Ah Tiah Aka Corine at compass at 1130 but she was late, lol.
We had lunch at Kopitiam, and Ah Tiah's eating style is very unglam -.-
You can't judge a book by it's cover really apply on Ah Tiah.
After which we took MRT down to Plaza Sing to shop, then went Cathay, met the rest there.
And yes, warning to all 3B girls!
" MISS CORINE TIAH IS A RAPIST."

It's an inside thing, but Ah Tiah is seriously crazy. -.-
We caught the show "Hotel For Dogs" , not too bad, it's funny.
And I find it interesting how they trained the dogs! Like woah, really wonderful.
I think its more worthwhile that "Race To Witch Mountain" .
Then met Grandma at Suntec while the rest while Vivo City to create havoc at ToyR'US. -.-
Walked around Marina Square cause Suntec is too crowded due to the PC show.
I'm supposed to get a new shirt, cause my favourite green and white strip shirt became green and pink strip -.-
So my grandma owe me a shirt!
Didn't see anything nice at Marina Square, aunt came and pick and went Great World City for dinner.
Had Kenny Roger's, not too bad. (:
They went shopping , I didn't get anything cause nothing fancy me.
Other than this dark blue and light blue vertical strip shirt. But it caused $89,90! Thus, I didn't even ask.
But I really like that shirt. Damn it.


Today's a little retarded, NE Champion duty was okay. Sec 1 boys are really annoying. -.-
They keep asking retarded questions that would really make you want to slap them.
But 1C girls are quite cute.
Then went lunch with Jennifer, Angela, Laureen, Rose and Jie Yi.
Angela, Laureen and Jodi went Burger King, the rest stayed at mac's.
The four of us, laughed for a total of 5 minutes LOL. For some retarded reasons.


Anyway, saw him on my way to school today. Not very happy about it.
I decided to not go yf's house for the next 2 months to not myself sad or emo.
Cause going to yf's house will increase the chances of seeing him around.
I give myself 2 months, 2 months to get over this.
I know I can do it.

I slept very early last night, was exhausted due to the day's activities.
Accompanied Bell to Hougang, after that I took train to compass to meet yanling, jasmine and leona was there too.
Jasmine and Yanling was having their haircut, Yanling's fringe is not that bad but she keeps complaining about it.
There was a heavy downpour in Sengkang, so we sat down at compass and took photos.
And Yanling looks retarded in photos, I don't know why too.


I'm feeling a little better after a night's rest, though those words are still repeating in my mind..
I'm trying my best to distract myself from thinking about them, but it's just so hard.
Now I'm feeling uncertain and I don't know why too.
Well... Life's just like that. I accept it.

Going out with Bell, pei yu and I don't know who else.
Hopefully I'll have a good time today.

A lie I didn't have to say, I didn't have to lie to anyone. But I did lied.
I don't want to remember you. NOT ANYMORE.
meet you and all other crap, it won't happen anymore.
Cause I'm sure, I won't want to talk or see you anymore.

The truth hurts, the lies worse.

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Yesterday's X-country was okay, got position 11. At least I'm still in top 15. Phew.
Started coughing half way, felt real bad. After the races, cleaned the toilet, had fun with Hui Yin.
Went back to school and Corine came my house to do cookies.
Then met dad, went Cathay to watch The Race To Witch Mountain. 3/5. phew.

Today, didn't feel well, didn't go for basketball, went Polyclinic with Bell to see doctor.
Got Anti-biotic, hopefully I'll recover after the whole course. Waited at the polyclinic for 1h30mins. Damn fucked up.
Went to have Mac's, then went down Serangoon, supposed to pass him his present today.

I'll cut the crap.

All I could say is, I can't blame anyone than myself for being so blinded.

photos, papers, memories. let them be gone forever.
I don't want to remember you and your words.
Your face, your actions and everything else about you.


Like a knife.

I'm rather bored today, I don't know what to post about ... hmmmm.

Okay I'm rather tired, so short updates.

Tomorrow is cross-country, WOO.
Got duty, damn sian, need to report to school at 6.50am when others can report at the park at 7.30am! GAH.

And also, tomorrow CORINE TIAH is coming my house to do cookies with me !
Quite excited about it cause i wonder what funny shit is going to happen at my house when Corine comes xD

Saturday I'm going to accomplished my mission that was due like 2 weeks ago! YAY!


Aiya, i can't wait.
Ciao I want go sleep liao.
Tomorrow's top 15!

LAST WEEK WAS A FREAKING WEEK.
LIKE DAMN $*@($&*@*%&(*%&@)&$@_*$. _l_

Well, obviously I'm up early again today, I rather wake up earlier to finish up my stuff than staying up late.
It seems healthy too.
Well, last week was a bad week for me. A week of mixed feelings. Sad over my results, but somehow I managed to brace too it.
Got really upset over my chemistry results on Thursday, though I could do better as I really put effort in it.
But it didn't turn out as I expected it to be, but I noticed careless mistakes. _l_
Well, Physics was far worse. -.-
The only 2 results that made me quite pleased and happy was my humans! History - 18/25. Geo - 20/25 :D
And my Chinese overall is ... 63/100 I think, I'm rather happy too. Never in my secondary school like have I scored higher than 60 for chinese.
Haven't got back my English and Amaths paper, bet it's going to be hell.
The number of people failing English is horrible, and I hope I'm not one of the many.

Some updates.
Friday went for NE. Champion course, it was rather fun, but very hot. lol.
Then I went Melissa house for Mj session, learnt Mj that night. Still a noob. lol.
Saturday was training, ran from school to riverside park! The Cross Country venue. O.o
The route at the park was a little tough, due to the up slopes and down slopes, I was tired.
Then we walk back to school, had training again.
Went KFC with Yiyee, Rachel & Soo Peng (Juniors) after training. Had a great time with Juniors (:
Then went home together with Yan Ling, Zhi Yu, Min Yu and Jasmine. The Tehs came my house to badminton.
Yanling - Tengteh  Zhiyu - Yuteh  Jasmine - Greenteh  Minyu - Hwateh  Joey - Liangteh       ;D
But instead of playing badminton, we were playing mj again -.-
So played mj till evening, then they left, I had my dinner and went over Sandy's to ton.
But I slept at 12midnight, Sandy and Yvonne were talking lol.

Sunday woke up at 8am, went to church.
Well, he made my sunday really nice. :D
Went Kbox with Sandy againnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn.
Super happy. ;D

Well, my week was just simply like this.
Got to go for breakfast.

Just hoping that you'll be free this weekend. :D

Well, today got back my Emaths paper, 17/50. Beautiful. It's too good to be true. -.-
Chemistry paper was a pile of shit, felt really down during PC.
Afterschool went balling with zhihui. Then went compass to slack with Jasmine, Yiyee, Rui Xi, Yan Ling, Min Yu and Zhi Yu. :D

Well..
I find it so miraculous, that some thing so simple just simply made my day. Made my weary and torn day happy again. (:
& I never thought that just seeing you is enough to make me smile, enough to make me forget that i failed my Emaths and the possibility of scoring badly for my chemistry. (:
Well, I'm pretty happy that I saw you today, was a little shock, but still happy. :D
The last time I saw you was like .. Valentine's Day? :D
Hopefully I would see you again soon, most probably next weekend, will be looking forward to it. :D


And Tyson Ritter is HOTHOTHOT. (:

KKK, I'm very tired. need to sleep. my beauty sleep. oh how I miss you. :D
My new nickname from minyu : Liangteh. x.x



I'M HAPPY TODAY CAUSE OF , NONE OTHER, THAN YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU. :D

TODAY IS CHEMISTRY PAPER!
AND I'M AWAKE AT 4.30AM TO STUDY. It's already 5.30am.
My usual time to go wash up, but I already have and I'm sitting here, studying Chem.


I'm just here to blog for fun.LOL.
Anyway, yesterday I found my first strain of white hair! AND IT GROWS FROM THE MIDDLE OF MY FRINGE!
OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG.
But I hope it won't contiune to grow after I pull it out. $@(*@(#*@(*!

Okay, need go change and eat breakfast liaaaoooo.
BYE.


Crystallisation is the separation of a dissolved solid from a solution as well-formed crystals!

JOEYNIUM.

And I think i'm turning nerdy.
Minyu keep calling me THAT DUMB NAME! ARGH.
AM I REALLY TURNING LL-LY!?!?!?!

Today is Physics and History test and guess what?
I'M GOING TO FAIL BOTH.


I'm turning crazy due to that fact, today my brain is really and seriously not screwed properly.
Anyway, my chinese is like, 55/100 . I expected some where there, my chinese was always CMI. :D
Today I'm a good kid and paid attention during Maths lesson, tried to figure out what Mr Tan is trying to teach.
Chapter 3 seemed pretty simple, but I'm still very trapped at chapter 2. DUMB LOG AND SHRUBS(?} Grrrrrrrrrrrr.
Today's history lesson is interesting, going to do group project! WOOOO! First project of the year. :D
And I have to say, Joseph Stalin is a horrible man, I'M NOT GOING TO SAY HIS A HERO. NO WAY.
He killed about 20 million Russians! LIKE WHAT THE HHEEEELLLLL . Horrible truth.
Though he was the main reason why Russia is so strong now, but I think his way of ruling is truly horrible.
If I was in Russia then, I will rather die then to serve him.

After Maths extra lessons today, went MOS burger with Pei Yu, Bellina and Corine. :D
Well, the four of us had fun at MOS burger, but MOS Burger did not have fries, out of stock. WTH.
Then Gideon and Vera came to join us, we made noise and crack dumb jokes.
Realised I feel more comfortable with Bell, Pei Yu and Corine than to the people I hang out with last year.
Of course, I enjoy Jasmine, Yan Ling, Zhi Yu, Melissa, Rui Xi, Min Yu, Jia Yi, Shi Hui, Ying Mei, Esther, Hui Yin, Ivy,
Nina, Vera, Iris, Zoe, Isabella, Ee Hwee, Zhi Mei and the guys' company too. :D
They are people I can't live without. :D


Something random before I end my post and start on amaths.



:D

Okay people. going offffffffffffff.

( RAINING! )

THE ALL AMERICAN REJECTS IS LOVE. <3


Though yesterday was rather an emo-shit day for me, but my evening was brightened up by AAR!
So yesterday's common test was hell of a crap. I'm going to flunk my EL test thanks to you-know-who. (YKW)
I'm going to flunk my maths too, I didn't do quite a number of questions cause I didn't have the time. :/
Then my day was rather down and crazy, maybe cause of tests and something else, it made me crazy.
I took off Corine's shoe together with Pei Yu and threw it around class during EL, I feel bad. Like Corine got to suffer my madness.
Sorry Corine .
After school was spent with Min Yu, Zhi Yu, Yan Ling and Jas, had lunch at LJS and slacked at compass.
Then we went Min Yu house to slack, watched TV till 5pm and we left.

Then I got home and went out to meet Vera and went for the AAR! :D
Reached Zouk's carpark at about 8.45pm, had hell lots of fun. The opening was by a beat-boxer.
The All American Rejects is FANTASTIC. They rock! Tyson Ritter <3 Nick Wheeler <3
I managed to snatched a guitar peck for me and vera :D
They were throwing AAR's guitar pecks, then everyone was grabbing, I managed to get 2 :D
Some damn Angmoh step my finger, super angry at her, I wack her foot. lol.

Today I met Vera at Dhoby Ghaut Mrt, had lunch at JustAcia then we trained down to Somerset.
Reached The Hereen around 2.30pm, and we managed to be the first 50 at the Nokia booth!
Which means we get to take photos with AAR! I LOVE THEM!
So, took photos of Tyson Ritter and took photo with the whole band itself ! Super happy.
I got my black Ink bag SIGNED! So now it's the AAR'S AUTOGRAPHY BAG! I LOVE MY BAG.
Vera brought her "Move Along" CD for them to autography. Tyson Ritter is hot, handsome and cute! xD
Then we slacked around, took some more photos and left. Went Vera's house to do some sutff and I went home.
Mum ordered Pizzahut and thus I had Pizzahut for dinner.




Tyson Ritter! <3






MY SIGNATURE BAG!


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It's 12.40am, I just woke up from my sleep.
Apparently, I didn't freaking wake up at 11.45pm as I planned. Nevermind.
Now I'm still feeling tired and my eyes feel like closing, what the fuck.


I couldn't sleep at 9.30pm, i got messages, I twist and turn. I just couldn't settle in.
My brain was still in a mess, my mood was freaking. I was feeling terrible.
Moodswings. :/
I know my moodswings problem is quite horrible and it happened quite often these days.
I don't think it's cause of stress, I'm not very stress over E.Maths, maybe a little. But not for english, way no.
I'm feeling very messed up, I'm sitting here, not knowing what exactly should I be doing.
Should I be studying my maths? Should I be slacking this like? Or should I be sleeping?
I can't make my choice, so I'm led to slacking. Blogging.

Maybe what Ronda said is true, I'm just so insignificant.

Still waiting for a freaking dumb email that seems to never come.

( DDD:  )